Sunday, August 30, 2009

mais. panis.

Funny how someone who used to be so insignificant in your life could suddenly become the source of your own insecurity.
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It could be you. It could be me. But then again it's really YOU. =P

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

... and I found the video clip of it.


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*and the movie is still in my head until now. good night world!=)

mr. joe f-o-x


What about you, is there someone else?
No. No, but... but there's the dream of someone else.
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I just finished watching You've Got Mail again and I just can't stop myself from smiling.

This is my favorite part, well, aside from the final scene:

Joe Fox: You know, sometimes I wonder...
Kathleen Kelly: What?
Joe Fox: Well... if I hadn't been Fox Books and you hadn't been The Shop Around the Corner, and you and I had just, well... met...
Kathleen Kelly: I know.
Joe Fox: Yeah. I would have asked for your number, and I wouldn't have been able to wait twenty-four hours before calling you and saying, "Hey, how about... oh, how about some coffee or, you know, drinks or dinner or a movie... for as long as we both shall live?"
Kathleen Kelly: Joe...
Joe Fox: And you and I would have never been at war. And the only thing we'd fight about would be which video to rent on a Saturday night.
Kathleen Kelly: Well, who fights about that?
Joe Fox: Well, some people. Not us.
Kathleen Kelly: We would never.
Joe Fox: If only.

*Because of this movie alone, I'll be smiling for the rest of the week.=)

Sunday, August 23, 2009

just say yes!

Sarita is a bit confusing for me right now.
She wanted something and, now, she has a slightly good chance of getting what she wants. Well, at least that's what she thinks. Maybe if she'll give it a few pushes she'll probably get it. But she's such a coward nowadays. Well, maybe she's reading into things too much. Maybe there's really not that much of a chance. But then, what really frustrates me is that she's not in the least bit motivated to give it a try. A bit of a nudge wouldn't really hurt ,right? But well I guess, right now, she's content with the monotony of her life and she doesn't really want to start something that she might not be ready for. OR maybe she has just really lost it. Boo!
Where is the girl that I love and hate at the same time? Where is the girl who'll do anything and everything just to get what she wants? Where is the girl who is ready to make a fool of herself just to fight for what she wants? What happened to the girl who is brave enough to face the world with the so few arsenals that she has up her sleeves? Sure, that girl was a little foolish for her own good but I miss her.
The girl I see right now is kind of robotic and unfeeling. Sure, she knows how to have fun. She knows her priorities and she knows where she stands. But then she seems to be so careful all the time. She keeps on thinking and rethinking things to the point that when she already made up her mind it's already too late for her to act. Sigh.
This girl makes me nuts. Chances have gone by and she's still clueless on what she really actually wants. It seems like whenever she gets to have a chance on something she suddenly has this urge of creeping back to her hole to pretend that she's taking her time to think. When in fact all she did was linger in the dark. I don't really know what she's doing there. Maybe she's waiting for someone to drag her out there by the ankle. I can't believe how much of a coward she had become.
But I have to say, I have to admire her for one thing. She really stood up for something despite the disaster that she had to go through. Though I know a part of her thinks that it's selfish of her to insist on what she wanted, I have to say that on that regard she really has come a long way. Some people might think of her as a timid girl who only squeaks every now and then. But I tell you, she's more than that. She has already been through hell and back. I know not everyone knows her story. She doesn't really talk about herself too much. But that's just really her nature. She'd rather hear the stories of other people. 'Coz really, what's the point in that? You already know who you are, why do you have to go around telling people who you are? Why not let them figure you out?
I just wish the a little part of the old Sarita would come back. Or maybe that part of her is still within her just waiting for the right time. But when will that happen?
Sarita. Sarita. You're too complicated, even for me. =P
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Sarita after 10 mins. of thinking:

No, I have not turned into a coward. Maybe I'm just taking my time off. You know how last year was. It was the worst time for me and for you. I still can't believe how I managed to get out of it in one piece. I was pretty sure that I'd breakdown that time. But look at me now, I can still wear my goofy smile with my gums all out!
Patience my dear. That time will come, whatever that is you're complaining about. haha. And besides, you still have something BIG coming for you. Just think of that first and everything else will follow. ;)


Saturday, August 8, 2009

confessions

Sarita: I wonder why it's so easy to be truthful to strangers...



Juanita: It's because no matter what they do with the truth, they could never hurt you.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

sungit mode

I've had my share of rejection. It's only right that I share it to others.
The world is not fair. It never was.
Deal with it.

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*a product of PMS and stress.