Monday, May 31, 2010

big bang ending

And so the peace I've been feeling for the past weeks just ended with a bang. A very dramatic bang, which reminded me of the dramas that I had to go through when I was growing up. tsk. I thought those episodes were over. I thought everybody had grown up and moved on. But it turned out that there are still some characters who remained the same. They were merely putting up a show. And tonight, masks, which were carefully crafted and placed, have fallen off.

Old woulds were reopened. No one was prepared for it. But then again should anyone be surprised by it? We can never pretend that all was simply buried in the past. Everything might have been locked in somewhere in our minds. And everybody was ready to pretend that there was nothing there. But we can never really keep something like that be locked up to oblivion. Somewhere along the line, the key to it is bound to turn up.

And I guess for as long as we keep doing that cycle of simply pushing it way back in our heads and pretending that it never occurred, we would always find ourselves facing this kind of big bang ending.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

no more chair.

Chuck: I haven’t read any posts on Gossip Girl yet. I guess my ban works in the provinces.
Blair: I knew it. I knew you’d fatwa’d me.
Chuck: …And I knew you couldn’t break it.
Blair: You’re wrong. I could have.
Chuck: Then why didn’t you?
Blair: Because… I suddenly realized it. The way to get over you isn’t by hooking up with some random guy, or pretending like we didn’t happen. You and I loved each other, and then you broke my heart. I’ve been doing everything possible not to face that fact. I’m gonna kiss somebody someday, and when I do, it’ll be for me. Goodbye, Chuck. I’m going home.