sorsya is renewed. almost.

I have to admit my ''the truth will set you free" project did me really good.

Ever since I've decided to be completely honest with my closest friends I've felt like I have unloaded a gigantic burden that I've been keeping within me for the longest time. Now, I feel like there's no longer any reason for me to be afraid though the guilt is still there.

As a part of this dealing with the truth drama, I decided to do something a little extreme. Before new year's eve I posted this status on my facebook account:

Sarah Abraham I made the biggest regret of my life this 2010. I became too selfish and proud that I had hurt a loved one so badly and I didn't have the courage to say sorry while he was in his death bed, even if I knew fully well that it was my last chance to do so. (Negaman, I'm so sorry and forever I will be. Somehow, in someway, I will try to make up for everything.)

December 30, 2010 at 11:29pm via Mobile Web · · Comment

I was being bold and brave when I posted this. The post was a big leap for me. I was used to subtleties. It was all part of my strategy of renewing myself. I figured it would help me a lot if I could admit to many people a part of my regret last year. It's not that I owe them the truth but it's because I owe it to myself to finally recognize what I've been trying to repress for months now. It was my way of saying "Yes, world. I know what I did. There. It's out already. Let me move on now." I might sound a little too dramatic here. HELLO STATUS LANG YON SA FACEBOOK. But I don't really care about what the people in facebook would think of my status. I'm sure there were nega people there who thought, "drama naman nito, new year na new year." But at the time that I posted the status I did not really care. I have my own reason for posting that status. It was all part of my healing process.

So, how am I right now? I feel actually renewed. If I were to be blunt about it I would say "medyo puwede na ako mag- yabang." I feel like I'm a better person already and it's only the start of the year. Wow. Let's go 2011.