yes man.

If she thinks it's worth it, she'd give an answer ten steps beyond a yes. 

time, be kind.

There are so many things I want to do but it seems that there is not enough time in my hands.  Now that my wannabe dream has been finally fulfilled, all I want now is enough time for everything else. 

short fiction

written December 2010
She’s a girl who has seen too much drama in her life. She grew up with drama and never really parted with it. But unlike others, she did not allow drama to rule her. She pretended that it was not there; convinced others that all was normal. For years, she has done it. She was good at it. Even at the most supposedly devastating moment of her life, she was not moved. Well, actually she was but not just in the way she was supposed to be moved.

She’s in love right now. Well, I think she is. But the guy she’s in love with has changed his mind. ANOTHER DRAMA for her. But then again this too shall pass. She’ll move on. I'm sure she will. There is just no other way. 

Unfinished entry: his sky.

I was browsing through my files when I saw this unfinished entry. I have no plans of finishing this now since I see no point in doing so. I've learned my lesson and that's that. 
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His Sky (May 13, 2009)

I’ve seen the world through his eyes. From his perspective, the world isn’t as difficult to live in as it really is. It’s one of those things that made me admire him. The world was his playground.  He recognizes the rules but those would never stop him from fulfilling his whims. I liked his world very much. It was different from the one that I was used to wherein everything should make sense. I was a very practical person or at least that’s what I try to be. But a great part of me didn’t want to be practical. I didn’t want to makes sense out of everything. A part of me simply wanted to live life as it is, without giving too much thought about things.

His world fascinated me. It was totally what I wanted. I wanted very much to become a part of it.  And for a time I was a part of it. For a time, I shared his world. We were happy. But then I realized that his world isn’t that easy to live in. I realized that the world he has created was simply the same as mine. The only difference is that whenever he is faced with some difficulties he turns a blind eye. He shuts everything that seems to be complicated and turns the other way. Letting fate decide whether he’d go forward or remain where he is.

there are no words for this

They say happiness means being content with what you have. But what do you call the emotion you feel when you finally get that one thing you've always wanted? Surely, that can't be happiness if we go by the definition I just gave. 

I think it's a much stronger feeling than happiness. But I don't think there is a word for it. I doubt that there is a word out there that is actually capable of encapsulating the feeling of being able to realize, at long last, your wannabe dream. Besides, labels are too constricting. Why limit such a profound feeling by words that are incapable of giving full significance to it?

I don't even think I should be wasting my time trying to figure out what this emotion should be called. I don't think that the lack of a word for it would somehow diminish this euphoric feeling within me. I should simply relish this feeling while it lasts.

All I know is, it's definitely NOT JUST A FEELING. It's something else. The best 'something' I've ever felt for the longest time!=)

It's called manning up.

Frank Tupelo: Do you mind me smoking? It's not a real cigarette.
Elise: What?
Frank Tupelo: It's electronic. It delivers the same amount of nicotine but the smoke is water vapor. Yeah, watch.[he takes a few drags of the electronic cigarette and stabs the end on his hand]
Frank Tupelo: LED light.
Elise: That's somewhat disappointing.
Frank Tupelo: Would you rather have me smoking for real?
Elise: I would rather you be a man who did exactly as he pleased.

pang-pelicula

I know I can't do this forever.

So, I might as well go all out now while I still have the heart for it.